“We must all suffer from one of two pains: the pain of discipline or the pain of regret. The difference is discipline weighs ounces while regret weighs tons.”
Come to think of it, looking back at the time when I was still studying for the final exam. I should have worked harder, or maybe let go of my ego and get some help. In the end, my entry to my dream course was denied just because I lacked 3 percentile from the requirements.
Up till today, the feeling of regret haunts me, every day and night, even before I sleep, I always thought to myself.....
What if?
At first I didn't really mind much about being delayed for another 6 months. But, looking at other people moving on to the next chapter of their life made me felt left behind. I felt like I was stuck in the same phase, not moving forward and hopefully not moving backwards. Moreover, I've never enjoyed this phase to begin with.
The feeling of being neither here nor there is just like standing on the boat without a paddle constantly drifting without knowing where you'd end up. That's how I feel. Although I've sat for the exam again, somehow I still feel uncertain despite the great amount of effort I've put in.
These consequences that I suffered made me realise that we have to set our priorities, and focus on what's more important. It's not high school anymore, we can't always fall back on our parents, we have responsibilities to shoulder. If you were to fail to prioritise, you'd suffer more shit than I did.
Being idle like this has made me irritable to small things.
Nowadays, people don't make an effort to converse nicely or their not fucking bothered at all. The point of a conversation is either to have a good time or get information from one another.
If you don't intend to even talk properly, why bother initiating a conversation in the first place.
I get insanely pissed when I'm the one being eager to converse where else the other party is not bothered at all. I don't get it, I really don't.
Meeting a lot of people has opened my eyes, how they can be so superficial, fake, materialistic etc. Some of them even believe that they are socially superior to you. ( well they can go fuck themselves ) Can I really blame them for behaving that way? Some of them are brought up to embrace that bullshit.
Then again, we live in a materialistic world, it can't be helped.
Monday, December 26, 2011
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
How I spend my time
It feels good to have my fingers pounding on the keyboard again. I don't know how people come up with post after post after post, and where do they even get titles from? I guess it's just the spur of the moment. I feel that it's all about consistency. Every time I feel like blogging, I tend to procrastinate and eventually I forget about what I'm supposed to blog about. So that basically sums up my absence from blogging, not because I'm too busy, but because I'm L A Z Y -__-
I've been on holidays for the past 2 months. Actually come to think of it, I didn't realize how fast time flies. I had my prom 10 days right after my finals.
I was quite surprised when the usually nerdy-geeky-awkward looking people like us turned out looking gorgeous and handsome that night. How much they transform was beyond my imagination, really.
On a side note I thought that prom was pretty boring ( no offense to the organizer ) I kind of expected it to turn out that way because I don't know everyone in college, I feel like that there's a whole other bunch of people that I've not talked to. Sure the food was alright and it was fancy and all, but I just didn't feel that 'graduation feeling' compared to what I felt in my high school prom.
On a side note, I did enjoy seeing everyone dress up to the 9's and probably thelast time I'll be seeing them too, hopefully not.
Port Dickson - Had a class trip right after prom.
This is the first time that 90% of the people in class were able to make it to the trip, well after a lot of convincing.
I'm so glad that they made it, I still recall getting so much closer among the classmates after having gone to our first ever class trip. Imagine what would happen if we had more of these outings, I learned that it is important to spend as much time as possible to foster a good relationship with your classmate because you're going to spend xxx years with them throughout your course. I find it impossible to alienate yourself from your classmates without feeling crappy.
Despite what I say sometimes about the class, they are awesome. Without them, I don't know how would I put up with Pre-U. I may sound like I'm exaggerating here but it was only towards the end of the trip when I realise things would be even more dull, if they were to not be there. Better late than never yeah? I have to admit I sort of miss them now.
Father's day - sisters baked the crepe cake while I helped 'assemble' the cake
Turned out more slimy then it should have, and it looks like a snail when you cut it out but it actually tastes pretty good, well at least my dad enjoyed it :D
Klang
My friend Andrew promised to bring me to a good Steamboat BBQ Buffer Restaurant, and here we are in Bukit Tinggi.
I was quite excited... well mostly jakun about catching live prawns, since the prawn we usually get on the counter are dead. And hah little did I know that my dear friend Eu Gene is afraid of jumping prawns :D
They have a variety of food there, not to mention the same type of meat with different seasoning. I was told by some workers to not take photos but I did anyway, however I could only manage to take that many.
Do not be fooled, this is easily 1/6 of what we had :D And for that much, only RM24! Worth all that money! *big grin*
Brought Sabrina, Sam, Jean and Eu Gene to my favorite bar of all time. Well guess who got high the fastest?
Hiked Broga Hill again with Andrew and Eu Gene this time. The view is entirely different when you climb all the way to the last peak. I didn't know why were we so lazy the last few times we went up Broga. That was the first time I've reached the last peak and I was blown away by the fact that I've not been able to see a proper sunrise for all the times I've been up there. *sarcasm*
These are the people I spend most of my time with when my classmates are around the globe.
And when the usual routine is just not enough,
we drink
we bake
and even travel together (:
I've been on holidays for the past 2 months. Actually come to think of it, I didn't realize how fast time flies. I had my prom 10 days right after my finals.
I was quite surprised when the usually nerdy-geeky-awkward looking people like us turned out looking gorgeous and handsome that night. How much they transform was beyond my imagination, really.
On a side note I thought that prom was pretty boring ( no offense to the organizer ) I kind of expected it to turn out that way because I don't know everyone in college, I feel like that there's a whole other bunch of people that I've not talked to. Sure the food was alright and it was fancy and all, but I just didn't feel that 'graduation feeling' compared to what I felt in my high school prom.
On a side note, I did enjoy seeing everyone dress up to the 9's and probably the
Port Dickson - Had a class trip right after prom.
This is the first time that 90% of the people in class were able to make it to the trip, well after a lot of convincing.
I'm so glad that they made it, I still recall getting so much closer among the classmates after having gone to our first ever class trip. Imagine what would happen if we had more of these outings, I learned that it is important to spend as much time as possible to foster a good relationship with your classmate because you're going to spend xxx years with them throughout your course. I find it impossible to alienate yourself from your classmates without feeling crappy.
Despite what I say sometimes about the class, they are awesome. Without them, I don't know how would I put up with Pre-U. I may sound like I'm exaggerating here but it was only towards the end of the trip when I realise things would be even more dull, if they were to not be there. Better late than never yeah? I have to admit I sort of miss them now.
Father's day - sisters baked the crepe cake while I helped 'assemble' the cake
Turned out more slimy then it should have, and it looks like a snail when you cut it out but it actually tastes pretty good, well at least my dad enjoyed it :D
Klang
My friend Andrew promised to bring me to a good Steamboat BBQ Buffer Restaurant, and here we are in Bukit Tinggi.
I was quite excited... well mostly jakun about catching live prawns, since the prawn we usually get on the counter are dead. And hah little did I know that my dear friend Eu Gene is afraid of jumping prawns :D
They have a variety of food there, not to mention the same type of meat with different seasoning. I was told by some workers to not take photos but I did anyway, however I could only manage to take that many.
Do not be fooled, this is easily 1/6 of what we had :D And for that much, only RM24! Worth all that money! *big grin*
Brought Sabrina, Sam, Jean and Eu Gene to my favorite bar of all time. Well guess who got high the fastest?
Hiked Broga Hill again with Andrew and Eu Gene this time. The view is entirely different when you climb all the way to the last peak. I didn't know why were we so lazy the last few times we went up Broga. That was the first time I've reached the last peak and I was blown away by the fact that I've not been able to see a proper sunrise for all the times I've been up there. *sarcasm*
These are the people I spend most of my time with when my classmates are around the globe.
And when the usual routine is just not enough,
we drink
we bake
and even travel together (:
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Just last night I brought my family and my best friend to catch MACC in action.
One word, AWESOME!
Their jokes are all about us Malaysians, and we can relate to them easily, this is why I love them :D
It's a must watch show for everyone. Just saying awesome would be an understatement. So don't miss the show that's going to be held during the end of the year!
I can't wait for another round of painful asses and stomachs. Just the perfect medicine for a good sleep :D
Speaking of sleeping, whenever I don't blog I feel as though my mind is constipated, it thinks and thinks and thinks and thinks but at the end of the day, you wouldn't know what on earth are you thinking about. Do you guys experience the same thing?
What do you do when you can't sleep?
I think I'm getting fat. I eat a lot, and when I say a lot it isn't just the usual 2 bowls of rice kind of thing. I'd eat snacks in between meals too. It's not the weight that's concerning me though, I just feel more and more tired by the day, could it be the diet?
But, how can you resist food that are delicious, mouth watering and mind blasting that will bring you to a MOUTH-gasm?
Memphis Bistro - somewhere near Saujana
Fettuccine with idk what sauce?
Their simply delicious lava cake!
Just look at how the chocolate flow out from the cakeSomewhere in near Summit, Subang
Beer flavored prawns( not really my best translation but yeah ) Looks good eh? How I wish you can eat as much as you want but don't grow fat. Gosh I sound like a glutton :D
Anyway, college is killing me. Everyday seems like a never ending cycle. How I wish I've more time.
Sunday, January 23, 2011
You only live once
listening to Barbra Streisand (:
You made a promise to yourself that you'd update more often everyday. Unfortunately by the time you're supposed to update, you tell yourself you're too tired and that you'll blog the next day. But when the next day comes, you tell yourself to do it the next day, and the next day, and the next day.
Next thing you know, months passed by and you haven't even typed a single character on your keyboard. So here I am, picking up from where I left off.
I can't blog about everything that happened since Jan 1 so I'll just do a recap.
1st January - Had an awesome New Year's Party/Gathering with my secondary ex-classmates.
The whole year started out pretty smooth, a little too early to say don't ya think? All that partying is giving me the beer belly, totally the opposite of what I want my tummy to look like. On the other hand I think ALL MEN'S STOMACH SHOULD BE ABLE TO SING.
Cheers to all the people with beer bellies!
You made a promise to yourself that you'd update more often everyday. Unfortunately by the time you're supposed to update, you tell yourself you're too tired and that you'll blog the next day. But when the next day comes, you tell yourself to do it the next day, and the next day, and the next day.
Next thing you know, months passed by and you haven't even typed a single character on your keyboard. So here I am, picking up from where I left off.
I can't blog about everything that happened since Jan 1 so I'll just do a recap.
1st January - Had an awesome New Year's Party/Gathering with my secondary ex-classmates.
14th January - Celebrated Choi-San's birthday ( maybe gotten him a lil wasted? )
click the picture to play the video :D
19th January - LMFAO turned MOS upside down!
The whole year started out pretty smooth, a little too early to say don't ya think? All that partying is giving me the beer belly, totally the opposite of what I want my tummy to look like. On the other hand I think ALL MEN'S STOMACH SHOULD BE ABLE TO SING.
Cheers to all the people with beer bellies!
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