Usually I blog about my relationships right after it ends, expressing my agony and feelings, mostly depressing thoughts. But this one, if I'd done the same, I'll
never move on.
We started dating officially on the 26th of February. How it happened, it was pretty spontaneous. I was at my school prom, hoping to dance with plenty of girls that night.
As I finished my first dance, there I saw her sitting by the table all by herself. I walked up to her, and asked whether she'd like to dance. She accepted my invitation. We had one slow dance, it was pretty awkward at first, because it has been ages since we have not talked to each other.
I enjoyed every minute of the dance, back then I felt something good about her, something I could not describe with words. In my head I was thinking,
go for her tzehao!.
And I did, we dated for about 2 months, then I spontaneously asked her to be my girlfriend. The following few months was something better than I'd ever imagine. There's too much to write here but believe me it was fantastic.
On the 8th of March 2010, she threw me a birthday party I'd never ever forget. That day was filled with mixed emotions. Sad, Surprised, Happy , Pissed you name it. Even today the whole scenario is still fresh in my mind.
We've done many other things together. I had a lot of ' My first times ' with her, exploring everything new that I've previously not been exposed to.
Everything was really great, in fact too good to be true. But then, I knew at one point, that we won't remain as those starry-eyed couples as life threw us many on-going problems to challenge us.
Furthermore, my exams were around the corner, I couldn't divide my attention as it was near impossible to do so. Eventually, on the 25th of August 2010, we broke up.
Believe me, I was devastated. I knew I was lost then because I was so emotionally dependent on her. But then again, who wouldn't be emotionally dependent on their partners?
I did my best to occupy myself then, being everywhere. And just when I thought I was doing fine coping with everything..
It was only a month plus after everything then.
Whether it's true or not it doesn't matter I'll just talk about it anyway.
I had to be sure of it, I don't know why but I was obsessed with the idea of confirming it. But just as I was about to go too far, my 'Ji Mui' advised me. Given much thought, I stopped my foolishness.
In a relationship, I think we'd learn something, whether it is during/after it ends. I don't believe in being enemies after breaking up. Hence the blog post.
As a person, everything about her can be summarized into one word - Simple. Shirts and Shorts are what she would wear. It is the simplicity in her that I love. She was contented with the simple things she had in life. It made me realise that the happiest people don't have the best of everything, they just make the best of everything they have. She taught me to enjoy the simplest pleasures of life as it comes.
The funny part is that we're different in terms of language spoken. To make it simple I was HBO and she was ' Wah Lai Toi '. Thanks to her, I took the initiative to reconnect myself with my Chinese Roots.
She loves to laugh, so do I. Life can be tough at times, and when it is I get obsessed with this one black dot on a white paper. She taught me to focus on the white spaces instead of the black dot.
( if you get what I mean )She gets pissed whenever I'm late, I always am. I became more punctual, for a change. Though, I still come late at times.
She introduced me to many new things, I tried many things I thought I'd never try.
I love to fight back and answer people. It is thanks to her that I learn to take a step back and let people walk through, it made things simpler.
And most important of all, she made me realise that a strong family bond is very important in a person's life. I'm blessed for having the privilege of having a close relationship with my siblings, and my parents.
The reason why I couldn't let go at first is pretty obvious. But now, after reminding myself '
if its meant to be, it's meant to be ' ,with much of a heavy heart, I'm finally ready to let go of her.
I don't have any reason to get mad at her.
In fact, I am thankful, for she has left a very precious memory in my life. A memory I would definitely look back upon.
I appreciate the things that she has done for me. And I can't thank her enough for making me a better person.
Though we're not exactly in good terms now, but I look forward to the day we talk again. :')
