I feel like my life now has not turned to the direction I expected it to turn to. In 2011, there were thoughts about how my life would be when I start on my medical degree and I thought things will proceed as I think it would. However, I've never imagined that not planning for a different outcome would be so dreadful.
On the previous posts, I expressed my dissatisfaction about my idling situation. Looks like it just took another plunge.
It took me these 6 months to realise, sometimes things do not happen on its own. You have to pursue something for it to happen. I know I know, everyone probably knew this since they were born. But even so, for it to hit me in the face like this, the feeling is quite indescribable.
It's not as simple as achieving good results or getting a good body as a result of consistent workouts, it's something more abstract like connecting with people, friendships etc.
I feel like these things are very unpredictable. Sometimes it turns out in your favor, and sometimes it just doesn't turn out well. Question is whether the problem is on my end, or is it the others?
For example I've recently cut off connections with someone who I've known for quite some time, it saddens me but I'd rather not be taken for granted again and again.
How does it feel when someone only talks to you when they need your favor, and when you do help them out, you don't hear from them again until the next favor comes in?
Obviously, shitty.
I've ignored 'these doings' ( I've got no word to describe this ) and hoped that things would be better and that person could actually treat me as a proper friend. But recently the same thing repeated itself, and I just can't see myself going through that vicious cycle again. That doesn't fit in too well to my definition of a friend.
I don't know if I was being harsh but it took a lot of guts to actually confront that person. Not knowing whether it was the right thing to do or not, but it made me feel a little bit better, so I guess it was right in some way.
Even so, I still wish I didn't have to do that. Hah, I hate the fact that I can have mixed feeling after deciding on something. Probably solving my indecisiveness has to go in the list of new year resolutions.
No one likes to be taken for granted or taken advantage. And I'm sure for those who did so before, I'm pretty sure you don't like to be taken advantage as well.
So don't do things to others which you would not like to be done to you.
I don't know if this phase would pass soon, but I can only hope for the best. It's not like I enjoy being so pessimistic either (:
With that said, Happy New Year everyone and hope you get to reach the goals you set in this year 2012.
Sunday, January 8, 2012
Monday, December 26, 2011
Not making an effort
“We must all suffer from one of two pains: the pain of discipline or the pain of regret. The difference is discipline weighs ounces while regret weighs tons.”
Come to think of it, looking back at the time when I was still studying for the final exam. I should have worked harder, or maybe let go of my ego and get some help. In the end, my entry to my dream course was denied just because I lacked 3 percentile from the requirements.
Up till today, the feeling of regret haunts me, every day and night, even before I sleep, I always thought to myself.....
What if?
At first I didn't really mind much about being delayed for another 6 months. But, looking at other people moving on to the next chapter of their life made me felt left behind. I felt like I was stuck in the same phase, not moving forward and hopefully not moving backwards. Moreover, I've never enjoyed this phase to begin with.
The feeling of being neither here nor there is just like standing on the boat without a paddle constantly drifting without knowing where you'd end up. That's how I feel. Although I've sat for the exam again, somehow I still feel uncertain despite the great amount of effort I've put in.
These consequences that I suffered made me realise that we have to set our priorities, and focus on what's more important. It's not high school anymore, we can't always fall back on our parents, we have responsibilities to shoulder. If you were to fail to prioritise, you'd suffer more shit than I did.
Being idle like this has made me irritable to small things.
Nowadays, people don't make an effort to converse nicely or their not fucking bothered at all. The point of a conversation is either to have a good time or get information from one another.
If you don't intend to even talk properly, why bother initiating a conversation in the first place.
I get insanely pissed when I'm the one being eager to converse where else the other party is not bothered at all. I don't get it, I really don't.
Meeting a lot of people has opened my eyes, how they can be so superficial, fake, materialistic etc. Some of them even believe that they are socially superior to you. ( well they can go fuck themselves ) Can I really blame them for behaving that way? Some of them are brought up to embrace that bullshit.
Then again, we live in a materialistic world, it can't be helped.
Come to think of it, looking back at the time when I was still studying for the final exam. I should have worked harder, or maybe let go of my ego and get some help. In the end, my entry to my dream course was denied just because I lacked 3 percentile from the requirements.
Up till today, the feeling of regret haunts me, every day and night, even before I sleep, I always thought to myself.....
What if?
At first I didn't really mind much about being delayed for another 6 months. But, looking at other people moving on to the next chapter of their life made me felt left behind. I felt like I was stuck in the same phase, not moving forward and hopefully not moving backwards. Moreover, I've never enjoyed this phase to begin with.
The feeling of being neither here nor there is just like standing on the boat without a paddle constantly drifting without knowing where you'd end up. That's how I feel. Although I've sat for the exam again, somehow I still feel uncertain despite the great amount of effort I've put in.
These consequences that I suffered made me realise that we have to set our priorities, and focus on what's more important. It's not high school anymore, we can't always fall back on our parents, we have responsibilities to shoulder. If you were to fail to prioritise, you'd suffer more shit than I did.
Being idle like this has made me irritable to small things.
Nowadays, people don't make an effort to converse nicely or their not fucking bothered at all. The point of a conversation is either to have a good time or get information from one another.
If you don't intend to even talk properly, why bother initiating a conversation in the first place.
I get insanely pissed when I'm the one being eager to converse where else the other party is not bothered at all. I don't get it, I really don't.
Meeting a lot of people has opened my eyes, how they can be so superficial, fake, materialistic etc. Some of them even believe that they are socially superior to you. ( well they can go fuck themselves ) Can I really blame them for behaving that way? Some of them are brought up to embrace that bullshit.
Then again, we live in a materialistic world, it can't be helped.
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
How I spend my time
It feels good to have my fingers pounding on the keyboard again. I don't know how people come up with post after post after post, and where do they even get titles from? I guess it's just the spur of the moment. I feel that it's all about consistency. Every time I feel like blogging, I tend to procrastinate and eventually I forget about what I'm supposed to blog about. So that basically sums up my absence from blogging, not because I'm too busy, but because I'm L A Z Y -__-
I've been on holidays for the past 2 months. Actually come to think of it, I didn't realize how fast time flies. I had my prom 10 days right after my finals.
I was quite surprised when the usually nerdy-geeky-awkward looking people like us turned out looking gorgeous and handsome that night. How much they transform was beyond my imagination, really.
On a side note I thought that prom was pretty boring ( no offense to the organizer ) I kind of expected it to turn out that way because I don't know everyone in college, I feel like that there's a whole other bunch of people that I've not talked to. Sure the food was alright and it was fancy and all, but I just didn't feel that 'graduation feeling' compared to what I felt in my high school prom.
On a side note, I did enjoy seeing everyone dress up to the 9's and probably thelast time I'll be seeing them too, hopefully not.
Port Dickson - Had a class trip right after prom.
This is the first time that 90% of the people in class were able to make it to the trip, well after a lot of convincing.
I'm so glad that they made it, I still recall getting so much closer among the classmates after having gone to our first ever class trip. Imagine what would happen if we had more of these outings, I learned that it is important to spend as much time as possible to foster a good relationship with your classmate because you're going to spend xxx years with them throughout your course. I find it impossible to alienate yourself from your classmates without feeling crappy.
Despite what I say sometimes about the class, they are awesome. Without them, I don't know how would I put up with Pre-U. I may sound like I'm exaggerating here but it was only towards the end of the trip when I realise things would be even more dull, if they were to not be there. Better late than never yeah? I have to admit I sort of miss them now.
Father's day - sisters baked the crepe cake while I helped 'assemble' the cake
Turned out more slimy then it should have, and it looks like a snail when you cut it out but it actually tastes pretty good, well at least my dad enjoyed it :D
Klang
My friend Andrew promised to bring me to a good Steamboat BBQ Buffer Restaurant, and here we are in Bukit Tinggi.
I was quite excited... well mostly jakun about catching live prawns, since the prawn we usually get on the counter are dead. And hah little did I know that my dear friend Eu Gene is afraid of jumping prawns :D
They have a variety of food there, not to mention the same type of meat with different seasoning. I was told by some workers to not take photos but I did anyway, however I could only manage to take that many.
Do not be fooled, this is easily 1/6 of what we had :D And for that much, only RM24! Worth all that money! *big grin*
Brought Sabrina, Sam, Jean and Eu Gene to my favorite bar of all time. Well guess who got high the fastest?
Hiked Broga Hill again with Andrew and Eu Gene this time. The view is entirely different when you climb all the way to the last peak. I didn't know why were we so lazy the last few times we went up Broga. That was the first time I've reached the last peak and I was blown away by the fact that I've not been able to see a proper sunrise for all the times I've been up there. *sarcasm*
These are the people I spend most of my time with when my classmates are around the globe.
And when the usual routine is just not enough,
we drink
we bake
and even travel together (:
I've been on holidays for the past 2 months. Actually come to think of it, I didn't realize how fast time flies. I had my prom 10 days right after my finals.
I was quite surprised when the usually nerdy-geeky-awkward looking people like us turned out looking gorgeous and handsome that night. How much they transform was beyond my imagination, really.
On a side note I thought that prom was pretty boring ( no offense to the organizer ) I kind of expected it to turn out that way because I don't know everyone in college, I feel like that there's a whole other bunch of people that I've not talked to. Sure the food was alright and it was fancy and all, but I just didn't feel that 'graduation feeling' compared to what I felt in my high school prom.
On a side note, I did enjoy seeing everyone dress up to the 9's and probably the
Port Dickson - Had a class trip right after prom.
This is the first time that 90% of the people in class were able to make it to the trip, well after a lot of convincing.
I'm so glad that they made it, I still recall getting so much closer among the classmates after having gone to our first ever class trip. Imagine what would happen if we had more of these outings, I learned that it is important to spend as much time as possible to foster a good relationship with your classmate because you're going to spend xxx years with them throughout your course. I find it impossible to alienate yourself from your classmates without feeling crappy.
Despite what I say sometimes about the class, they are awesome. Without them, I don't know how would I put up with Pre-U. I may sound like I'm exaggerating here but it was only towards the end of the trip when I realise things would be even more dull, if they were to not be there. Better late than never yeah? I have to admit I sort of miss them now.
Father's day - sisters baked the crepe cake while I helped 'assemble' the cake
Turned out more slimy then it should have, and it looks like a snail when you cut it out but it actually tastes pretty good, well at least my dad enjoyed it :D
Klang
My friend Andrew promised to bring me to a good Steamboat BBQ Buffer Restaurant, and here we are in Bukit Tinggi.
I was quite excited... well mostly jakun about catching live prawns, since the prawn we usually get on the counter are dead. And hah little did I know that my dear friend Eu Gene is afraid of jumping prawns :D
They have a variety of food there, not to mention the same type of meat with different seasoning. I was told by some workers to not take photos but I did anyway, however I could only manage to take that many.
Do not be fooled, this is easily 1/6 of what we had :D And for that much, only RM24! Worth all that money! *big grin*
Brought Sabrina, Sam, Jean and Eu Gene to my favorite bar of all time. Well guess who got high the fastest?
Hiked Broga Hill again with Andrew and Eu Gene this time. The view is entirely different when you climb all the way to the last peak. I didn't know why were we so lazy the last few times we went up Broga. That was the first time I've reached the last peak and I was blown away by the fact that I've not been able to see a proper sunrise for all the times I've been up there. *sarcasm*
These are the people I spend most of my time with when my classmates are around the globe.
And when the usual routine is just not enough,
we drink
we bake
and even travel together (:
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Just last night I brought my family and my best friend to catch MACC in action.
One word, AWESOME!
Their jokes are all about us Malaysians, and we can relate to them easily, this is why I love them :D
It's a must watch show for everyone. Just saying awesome would be an understatement. So don't miss the show that's going to be held during the end of the year!
I can't wait for another round of painful asses and stomachs. Just the perfect medicine for a good sleep :D
Speaking of sleeping, whenever I don't blog I feel as though my mind is constipated, it thinks and thinks and thinks and thinks but at the end of the day, you wouldn't know what on earth are you thinking about. Do you guys experience the same thing?
What do you do when you can't sleep?
I think I'm getting fat. I eat a lot, and when I say a lot it isn't just the usual 2 bowls of rice kind of thing. I'd eat snacks in between meals too. It's not the weight that's concerning me though, I just feel more and more tired by the day, could it be the diet?
But, how can you resist food that are delicious, mouth watering and mind blasting that will bring you to a MOUTH-gasm?
Memphis Bistro - somewhere near Saujana
Fettuccine with idk what sauce?
Their simply delicious lava cake!
Just look at how the chocolate flow out from the cakeSomewhere in near Summit, Subang
Beer flavored prawns( not really my best translation but yeah ) Looks good eh? How I wish you can eat as much as you want but don't grow fat. Gosh I sound like a glutton :D
Anyway, college is killing me. Everyday seems like a never ending cycle. How I wish I've more time.
Sunday, January 23, 2011
You only live once
listening to Barbra Streisand (:
You made a promise to yourself that you'd update more often everyday. Unfortunately by the time you're supposed to update, you tell yourself you're too tired and that you'll blog the next day. But when the next day comes, you tell yourself to do it the next day, and the next day, and the next day.
Next thing you know, months passed by and you haven't even typed a single character on your keyboard. So here I am, picking up from where I left off.
I can't blog about everything that happened since Jan 1 so I'll just do a recap.
1st January - Had an awesome New Year's Party/Gathering with my secondary ex-classmates.
The whole year started out pretty smooth, a little too early to say don't ya think? All that partying is giving me the beer belly, totally the opposite of what I want my tummy to look like. On the other hand I think ALL MEN'S STOMACH SHOULD BE ABLE TO SING.
Cheers to all the people with beer bellies!
You made a promise to yourself that you'd update more often everyday. Unfortunately by the time you're supposed to update, you tell yourself you're too tired and that you'll blog the next day. But when the next day comes, you tell yourself to do it the next day, and the next day, and the next day.
Next thing you know, months passed by and you haven't even typed a single character on your keyboard. So here I am, picking up from where I left off.
I can't blog about everything that happened since Jan 1 so I'll just do a recap.
1st January - Had an awesome New Year's Party/Gathering with my secondary ex-classmates.
14th January - Celebrated Choi-San's birthday ( maybe gotten him a lil wasted? )
click the picture to play the video :D
19th January - LMFAO turned MOS upside down!
The whole year started out pretty smooth, a little too early to say don't ya think? All that partying is giving me the beer belly, totally the opposite of what I want my tummy to look like. On the other hand I think ALL MEN'S STOMACH SHOULD BE ABLE TO SING.
Cheers to all the people with beer bellies!
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Monday, October 25, 2010
Exams
Oh boy it's been 2 weeks since last post, my bad. I've been preparing for the long awaited AS Finals, it's gonna determine whether I get to pursue a medical degree or NOT :o
The whole exam drags throughout more than a month so you can kind of imagine how long it is considering I'm only sitting for 5 subjects.
I think I'm about to be engulfed by mixed feelings. I can't wait for the exam to end, at the same time, I'm afraid by the time it comes I'm not prepared.
On top of that, I tried to concentrate when I study, but I came across some notes where I scribbled her name all over them some time back, how's that for getting back on track?
Even so, it doesn't bug me though, I don't feel sad or anything, occasional flashbacks do happen, nothing else. Moreover, I think it's a bad time to think about all these so it's pretty unlikely for me to get involved in anything anytime soon.
I still mean what I said on the last line of the previous post :D
It's raining now, normally I would say ' at least I don't have to play under the heat ' but I really need that sort of thing now ._.
Will update pretty soon, stay tuned!
Monday, October 11, 2010
This marks the end of another chapter
Usually I blog about my relationships right after it ends, expressing my agony and feelings, mostly depressing thoughts. But this one, if I'd done the same, I'll never move on.
We started dating officially on the 26th of February. How it happened, it was pretty spontaneous. I was at my school prom, hoping to dance with plenty of girls that night.
As I finished my first dance, there I saw her sitting by the table all by herself. I walked up to her, and asked whether she'd like to dance. She accepted my invitation. We had one slow dance, it was pretty awkward at first, because it has been ages since we have not talked to each other.
I enjoyed every minute of the dance, back then I felt something good about her, something I could not describe with words. In my head I was thinking, go for her tzehao!.
And I did, we dated for about 2 months, then I spontaneously asked her to be my girlfriend. The following few months was something better than I'd ever imagine. There's too much to write here but believe me it was fantastic.
On the 8th of March 2010, she threw me a birthday party I'd never ever forget. That day was filled with mixed emotions. Sad, Surprised, Happy , Pissed you name it. Even today the whole scenario is still fresh in my mind.
We've done many other things together. I had a lot of ' My first times ' with her, exploring everything new that I've previously not been exposed to.
Everything was really great, in fact too good to be true. But then, I knew at one point, that we won't remain as those starry-eyed couples as life threw us many on-going problems to challenge us.
Furthermore, my exams were around the corner, I couldn't divide my attention as it was near impossible to do so. Eventually, on the 25th of August 2010, we broke up.
Believe me, I was devastated. I knew I was lost then because I was so emotionally dependent on her. But then again, who wouldn't be emotionally dependent on their partners?
I did my best to occupy myself then, being everywhere. And just when I thought I was doing fine coping with everything..
It was only a month plus after everything then. Whether it's true or not it doesn't matter I'll just talk about it anyway.
I had to be sure of it, I don't know why but I was obsessed with the idea of confirming it. But just as I was about to go too far, my 'Ji Mui' advised me. Given much thought, I stopped my foolishness.
In a relationship, I think we'd learn something, whether it is during/after it ends. I don't believe in being enemies after breaking up. Hence the blog post.
As a person, everything about her can be summarized into one word - Simple. Shirts and Shorts are what she would wear. It is the simplicity in her that I love. She was contented with the simple things she had in life. It made me realise that the happiest people don't have the best of everything, they just make the best of everything they have. She taught me to enjoy the simplest pleasures of life as it comes.
The funny part is that we're different in terms of language spoken. To make it simple I was HBO and she was ' Wah Lai Toi '. Thanks to her, I took the initiative to reconnect myself with my Chinese Roots.
She loves to laugh, so do I. Life can be tough at times, and when it is I get obsessed with this one black dot on a white paper. She taught me to focus on the white spaces instead of the black dot. ( if you get what I mean )
She gets pissed whenever I'm late, I always am. I became more punctual, for a change. Though, I still come late at times.
She introduced me to many new things, I tried many things I thought I'd never try.
I love to fight back and answer people. It is thanks to her that I learn to take a step back and let people walk through, it made things simpler.
And most important of all, she made me realise that a strong family bond is very important in a person's life. I'm blessed for having the privilege of having a close relationship with my siblings, and my parents.
The reason why I couldn't let go at first is pretty obvious. But now, after reminding myself ' if its meant to be, it's meant to be ' ,with much of a heavy heart, I'm finally ready to let go of her.
I don't have any reason to get mad at her.
In fact, I am thankful, for she has left a very precious memory in my life. A memory I would definitely look back upon.
I appreciate the things that she has done for me. And I can't thank her enough for making me a better person.
Though we're not exactly in good terms now, but I look forward to the day we talk again. :')
We started dating officially on the 26th of February. How it happened, it was pretty spontaneous. I was at my school prom, hoping to dance with plenty of girls that night.
As I finished my first dance, there I saw her sitting by the table all by herself. I walked up to her, and asked whether she'd like to dance. She accepted my invitation. We had one slow dance, it was pretty awkward at first, because it has been ages since we have not talked to each other.
I enjoyed every minute of the dance, back then I felt something good about her, something I could not describe with words. In my head I was thinking, go for her tzehao!.
And I did, we dated for about 2 months, then I spontaneously asked her to be my girlfriend. The following few months was something better than I'd ever imagine. There's too much to write here but believe me it was fantastic.
On the 8th of March 2010, she threw me a birthday party I'd never ever forget. That day was filled with mixed emotions. Sad, Surprised, Happy , Pissed you name it. Even today the whole scenario is still fresh in my mind.
We've done many other things together. I had a lot of ' My first times ' with her, exploring everything new that I've previously not been exposed to.
Everything was really great, in fact too good to be true. But then, I knew at one point, that we won't remain as those starry-eyed couples as life threw us many on-going problems to challenge us.
Furthermore, my exams were around the corner, I couldn't divide my attention as it was near impossible to do so. Eventually, on the 25th of August 2010, we broke up.
Believe me, I was devastated. I knew I was lost then because I was so emotionally dependent on her. But then again, who wouldn't be emotionally dependent on their partners?
I did my best to occupy myself then, being everywhere. And just when I thought I was doing fine coping with everything..
It was only a month plus after everything then. Whether it's true or not it doesn't matter I'll just talk about it anyway.
I had to be sure of it, I don't know why but I was obsessed with the idea of confirming it. But just as I was about to go too far, my 'Ji Mui' advised me. Given much thought, I stopped my foolishness.
In a relationship, I think we'd learn something, whether it is during/after it ends. I don't believe in being enemies after breaking up. Hence the blog post.
As a person, everything about her can be summarized into one word - Simple. Shirts and Shorts are what she would wear. It is the simplicity in her that I love. She was contented with the simple things she had in life. It made me realise that the happiest people don't have the best of everything, they just make the best of everything they have. She taught me to enjoy the simplest pleasures of life as it comes.
The funny part is that we're different in terms of language spoken. To make it simple I was HBO and she was ' Wah Lai Toi '. Thanks to her, I took the initiative to reconnect myself with my Chinese Roots.
She loves to laugh, so do I. Life can be tough at times, and when it is I get obsessed with this one black dot on a white paper. She taught me to focus on the white spaces instead of the black dot. ( if you get what I mean )
She gets pissed whenever I'm late, I always am. I became more punctual, for a change. Though, I still come late at times.
She introduced me to many new things, I tried many things I thought I'd never try.
I love to fight back and answer people. It is thanks to her that I learn to take a step back and let people walk through, it made things simpler.
And most important of all, she made me realise that a strong family bond is very important in a person's life. I'm blessed for having the privilege of having a close relationship with my siblings, and my parents.
The reason why I couldn't let go at first is pretty obvious. But now, after reminding myself ' if its meant to be, it's meant to be ' ,with much of a heavy heart, I'm finally ready to let go of her.
I don't have any reason to get mad at her.
In fact, I am thankful, for she has left a very precious memory in my life. A memory I would definitely look back upon.
I appreciate the things that she has done for me. And I can't thank her enough for making me a better person.
Though we're not exactly in good terms now, but I look forward to the day we talk again. :')
OH EM Gee
I'm running out of ideas for blog post titles, I guess I just haven't been out much, no idea how am I going to clear my mind and get new inspirations just by sitting at home and loving my books.
Heck I even went and search up guides to blog better, don't laugh cause it actually helps :o
So for those who are interested only, check out How To Blog Better
My sister and I were talking about having a BBQ party over dinner. So what the heck we did it anyway.
It was so last minute we only called 10 people or so. On top of that we only had about 1 day to prepare? We rushed to get the groceries with whatever spare time we had, marinated everything during the wee hours, and bam we made it.
I know I procrastinated to have this BBQ since Form 5 Trials man exactly a year ago :p So in a way I feel better I can finally tick that off my to-do-list.
Groceries weren't cheap, it sum up all to 300~400 plus? Not to mention the additional beers. We prepared way too much food to be munched down by 10 people, which then leads to SOS'ing people who had not eaten dinner to come.
So sorry for that last minute call by the way :p Anyway, it was a good dinner, and if given the chance to prepare everything not so in a rush, I would do it again, provided someone helps me this time ._.
Moving on, I came back to school, having new classmates joining the PM3 family. We had a Steamboat Dinner to welcome them to the family.
Thats pretty much it for the class. I'm quite glad we have new people added in to the class cause we really lack people here in the class. In chinese we would go like ' em gao yan hei '.
They're shy, but slowly feeling a part of the family. At least I think that way. I'm really looking forward to get to know them more (:
I just found this guy, David Choi, an asian that has exceptional vocals! Do check him out.
Click on the picture if you wish to know more about him.
Ah the link to image works!
Heck I even went and search up guides to blog better, don't laugh cause it actually helps :o
So for those who are interested only, check out How To Blog Better
My sister and I were talking about having a BBQ party over dinner. So what the heck we did it anyway.
It was so last minute we only called 10 people or so. On top of that we only had about 1 day to prepare? We rushed to get the groceries with whatever spare time we had, marinated everything during the wee hours, and bam we made it.
I know I procrastinated to have this BBQ since Form 5 Trials man exactly a year ago :p So in a way I feel better I can finally tick that off my to-do-list.
Groceries weren't cheap, it sum up all to 300~400 plus? Not to mention the additional beers. We prepared way too much food to be munched down by 10 people, which then leads to SOS'ing people who had not eaten dinner to come.
So sorry for that last minute call by the way :p Anyway, it was a good dinner, and if given the chance to prepare everything not so in a rush, I would do it again, provided someone helps me this time ._.
Moving on, I came back to school, having new classmates joining the PM3 family. We had a Steamboat Dinner to welcome them to the family.
Zue and I
New classmates :D
Classmates that left us :D
Hmmm, I forgot what happened here
Imitating one of our classmates
Thats pretty much it for the class. I'm quite glad we have new people added in to the class cause we really lack people here in the class. In chinese we would go like ' em gao yan hei '.
They're shy, but slowly feeling a part of the family. At least I think that way. I'm really looking forward to get to know them more (:
I just found this guy, David Choi, an asian that has exceptional vocals! Do check him out.
Click on the picture if you wish to know more about him.
Ah the link to image works!
Saturday, October 2, 2010
New look
Just something I thought I should share, it cheered me up tremendously. Thanks to my friend Zue for sending this to me. I love the third line and fourth line.
6 things you should realize after a break-up:
•Breaking up is either letting go of good one or kicking someone unworthy in your life.
•You lose a person because you deserve someone better.
•Love has its own reason, destiny has its own way, and karma has its own judgment..
•The one who cries the most is the one who loves the most.
•Time won’t heal the heartache but a new one will surely do.
•It’s the end of the relationship. NOT the end of your life.
As you guys can see I just changed the entire template from pitch black to almost-suit-your-eyes purple
6 things you should realize after a break-up:
•Breaking up is either letting go of good one or kicking someone unworthy in your life.
•You lose a person because you deserve someone better.
•Love has its own reason, destiny has its own way, and karma has its own judgment..
•The one who cries the most is the one who loves the most.
•Time won’t heal the heartache but a new one will surely do.
•It’s the end of the relationship. NOT the end of your life.
As you guys can see I just changed the entire template from pitch black to almost-suit-your-eyes purple
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Happy ' 1 month '
I didn't realise how one month could just flew past me like that. I can't even imagine how I even managed to numb myself for the first two weeks. Till today, I don't think I'm completely over it, it still feels raw from time to time, it doesn't make sense at all.
At times part of me wants to run up to her and hug her and swing her around like we've never met in many years ; then another part of me says that now's not the time, or it'll backfire somehow.
Either way it's driving me nuts, stuck trying to make a difficult decision. I was pretty confident that I'd pick one of the two choices I had after giving it some thought, but then, something arise and there goes my chance to get the answer I longed for.
Anyway putting that aside, my holidays were fantastic!
I thought it would be good if I got 'super happening' all a sudden to get over this overwhelming depressing moment. I tried, only to find out that, it didn't really help much with recovering. When I'm around people, it doesn't cross my mind, but when it comes to the time when I'm alone, the thoughts alone can kill me.
Moreover, I realise that I was all over the place, I find it pretty silly, because I did not feel happy doing it either. Screwed up my sleeping hours, and kinda killed my body too.
So then I knew it was time that I have to stop all these foolishness just to be around people all the time. Not that I do not enjoy the privilege of having people around it's just that it feels different if it's not with your closest bunch of friends.
All the hits played were good, crowd kinda sucked though. I thought it was supposed to be Ladies Night, and instead it turned out to be a Men's Fest -_-
One table had at least 6 guys on it, what a bummer man. And what makes it better is that the table which had bunch of girls didn't even hit the dance floor ):
Oh well, other than that I couldn't remember a single thing, but what happens there stays there :D
The following days were not really interesting at all, it kinda became a routine for me to sleep till it's late in the evening and probably waste the day just like that. Until one day :o Eu Gene and I decided to conquer Broga, it doesn't sound too challenging doesn't it but we had nothing better to do.
Slept for two hours, hooked on the GPS and got some beer and off we went.
Believe me it was WAYYYYY DARKER than this, I could barely see the road as I was driving into the area. We got lucky because some humans reached after I parked the car. I thought we were alone.
The climbing was pretty challenging! I had an umbrella on one hand, and the icebox on the other and I still had to hold the torchlight. There were certain parts of the hill where you had to grab on to something in order to continue climbing, the safety ropes were broken, and I only saw a black patch when I looked forward.
Just when I realised it was a bad idea bringing the beers and ice pack along...
We REACHED! Just within 35 minutes of hiking. We were pretty excited we weren't late for the sunrise but the freaking area was so misty and I knew it was going to rain. We decided to wait a little longer before heading down and kept our fingers crossed that we might see that sunrise.
Nothing beats a chilled beer when you're so exhausted gasping for air. I SHIT YOU NOT, those advertisement don't lie. When you're extremely thirsty just go for a beer, screw water :D
Overall it was a good experience, I had to spend 35 minutes, hiking up this hill, just to find out I am physically unfit, and kinda dumb for not being practical enough ' eg : bringing beer up.
We had lunch at MCD because there was not many shops opened around Semenyih, but we could've died from hunger and exhaustion I swear :S
To be continued.. I'm not done updating but enjoy reading (:
At times part of me wants to run up to her and hug her and swing her around like we've never met in many years ; then another part of me says that now's not the time, or it'll backfire somehow.
Either way it's driving me nuts, stuck trying to make a difficult decision. I was pretty confident that I'd pick one of the two choices I had after giving it some thought, but then, something arise and there goes my chance to get the answer I longed for.
Anyway putting that aside, my holidays were fantastic!
I thought it would be good if I got 'super happening' all a sudden to get over this overwhelming depressing moment. I tried, only to find out that, it didn't really help much with recovering. When I'm around people, it doesn't cross my mind, but when it comes to the time when I'm alone, the thoughts alone can kill me.
Moreover, I realise that I was all over the place, I find it pretty silly, because I did not feel happy doing it either. Screwed up my sleeping hours, and kinda killed my body too.
So then I knew it was time that I have to stop all these foolishness just to be around people all the time. Not that I do not enjoy the privilege of having people around it's just that it feels different if it's not with your closest bunch of friends.
All the hits played were good, crowd kinda sucked though. I thought it was supposed to be Ladies Night, and instead it turned out to be a Men's Fest -_-
One table had at least 6 guys on it, what a bummer man. And what makes it better is that the table which had bunch of girls didn't even hit the dance floor ):
Oh well, other than that I couldn't remember a single thing, but what happens there stays there :D
The following days were not really interesting at all, it kinda became a routine for me to sleep till it's late in the evening and probably waste the day just like that. Until one day :o Eu Gene and I decided to conquer Broga, it doesn't sound too challenging doesn't it but we had nothing better to do.
Slept for two hours, hooked on the GPS and got some beer and off we went.
Believe me it was WAYYYYY DARKER than this, I could barely see the road as I was driving into the area. We got lucky because some humans reached after I parked the car. I thought we were alone.
The climbing was pretty challenging! I had an umbrella on one hand, and the icebox on the other and I still had to hold the torchlight. There were certain parts of the hill where you had to grab on to something in order to continue climbing, the safety ropes were broken, and I only saw a black patch when I looked forward.
Just when I realised it was a bad idea bringing the beers and ice pack along...
We REACHED! Just within 35 minutes of hiking. We were pretty excited we weren't late for the sunrise but the freaking area was so misty and I knew it was going to rain. We decided to wait a little longer before heading down and kept our fingers crossed that we might see that sunrise.
Nothing beats a chilled beer when you're so exhausted gasping for air. I SHIT YOU NOT, those advertisement don't lie. When you're extremely thirsty just go for a beer, screw water :D
Overall it was a good experience, I had to spend 35 minutes, hiking up this hill, just to find out I am physically unfit, and kinda dumb for not being practical enough ' eg : bringing beer up.
We had lunch at MCD because there was not many shops opened around Semenyih, but we could've died from hunger and exhaustion I swear :S
To be continued.. I'm not done updating but enjoy reading (:
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